Guilty

Guilty
You accept me
You want me
You need me
To be there for you
To be there for them
To be here for me
I ain’t got nobody else

Guilty
I accept you
I want you
I need you
Damn I might love you
Because you’re there when there here
Because you’re here always
I might not know it but welcome

Guilty
I take the fall
I take the heat
I feel… I feel
I try to fly but can’t
I try to get warm you help
I want to stop
You won’t

Guilty
A friend hurts
I care
But then you
I want to care
“You wish they’d shut up”
I say I’m sorry
“More sorry for yourself”

Guilty
I love a girl
With all my heart
And then you
I love her
“You want to fuck her”
I wish her happiness
“You want her screaming”

Guilty
I want fame
I want love
You again
Make me famous
“You want to die”
A love of mine
“You want to die”

Guilty
I take my share of the blame
I surely am a sinner
I’m a bad man
How did I get here?
Didn’t wake up with evil
Wake up not caring
Wanting to rape, torture, and kill

Guilty
It’s my fault
All of it
The only lie you’ve told
Maybe it’s not a lie anymore
I accept you
I need you
I love you

Guilty
I’ll tell them to shut up
I’ll write of fucking her
Nothing will be read and I’ll hate
I’ll dream of love and violate
Because I am a sinner
Because I am a monster
Because I am guilty

I’m going to Hell and you’re coming with me

Copyright © 2010, Will A. Bradford Jr.