Mourn... Ain't Got No Time

I won’t lie this was somewhat rushed and it was due to recent events today, needless to say everything’s gone. Honestly I don’t know what I’m going to do (my blog) I think it is the end and really I don’t have time to cry or even be that upset, it just happened so fast.

~Mourn... Ain't Got No Time~

Rage

Written during the cruel days of high school and no I never shot one up.

~Rage~

Alone

Holds some truth within.

~Alone~

Then The Morning Comes

The morning comes it always comes for him he thought and he was in the nightmare living it until tonight for the darkness would come over him once again and he would truly be alive.

~Then The Morning Comes~

I Wish "She" Has A Happy Life

I’m not going to lie, rereading this I almost cried and I couldn’t even listen to the words, maybe I suck, maybe this was just too deep. A part of me wants to say I hate her that I didn’t mean anything at all in this poem, this girl took so much from me and now I want to give her everything or let someone else do it. I Wish “She” Has A Happy Life, I honestly don’t know and I can’t really bear to imagine where she is now…

~I Wish "She" Has A Happy Life~

The Last Beautiful Girl

I wrote this for a challenge, some “friends” of mine that I barely speak to anymore; I was inspired by Matchbox Twenty’s “The Last Beautiful Girl”. Somehow or another I actually had some hope you know that I wouldn’t be alone for the rest of my life. Turns out now that this “Sweetness” was indeed the last beautiful girl, because all girls are just like her…

~The Last Beautiful Girl~

The Path

To love someone I think you must give all yourself, that’s how I knew it was love because really now would I do all this for just an internet vixen? I wrote, I created, I dreamed of a love that I could call my own; a year and a half of my life wasted, she didn’t ask but she didn’t have to. The Path I still walk all alone because I have realized that there is no one for me, no not anyone.

~The Path~

Is It You or The Words… Meaningless

When you love someone, it’s more than this one word, this one feeling but a plethora of emotions. Love left unspoken or rejected is even worse and with my love for a certain girl there was that along with silence and fear. Is It You Or The Words… Meaningless, I think in the end it was both, I mean come on I didn’t win the girl and I’m here, yep meaningless.

~Is It You or The Words… Meaningless~

But, I Wanna Be

I can’t be someone I’m not no matter how badly I wanted to be… hell who am I kidding if she came to me today I still would try. This was yet more thoughts after “she” broke my heart, dreaming of another life, another chance. But, I Wanna be… well that’s just it I don’t even know anymore but I’m still not forgetting her.

~But, I Wanna Be~

I Was Fine...

I remember this quite well… this is when the girl I love had just crushed me like a bug underneath her platinum stiletto heels. It was so easy loving her and even now it’s very difficult thinking about her, hell even now after all this time hating her. I Was Fine until I read this again and now, what now, nothing has changed except it hurts once again.

~I Was Fine…~

If The Devil…

I know demons and devils, I live in Hell but for some moment I was confused as to who truly ruled such a place. Would you like to know; I wish I could show you a picture of the evil succubus I fell in love with, alas I cannot. If The Devil were thoughts on loving such evil and honestly there is a new devil in town.

~If The Devil…~

Nature’s Wild

Where the sun don’t shine; well maybe it did maybe it didn’t but for a time I did find such freedom. Nature’s wild is a place long since forgotten, no girl, no freedom, nothing more. Sometimes I wonder is there a tape somewhere… well nobody knows me, doesn’t matter.

~Nature’s Wild~

It’s What I Do…

The thought of having kids truly terrifies me and do you want to know why… because I was a child once and I had a father or should I say didn’t have. I had what I now call The Abomination and if I ever became this I would rather die that have any child of mine fear me. I couldn’t help but imagine though what it would be like to have a father and so I wrote it down…

~It’s What I Do…~

Not Yet…

For everything I ever wanted and could never ever have; I’m told someday but never today and not even tomorrow. I’ll never die in fame and glory you know, I’ll just die and it will be as though I never ever began. Not Yet reminds me of this episode of The Twilight Zone I saw once; if I’m ever on the cusp of having everything will it be not yet or now I hear?

~Not Yet…~

If Dreams Aren’t Real, Why Are Nightmares?

Loosely translated moonlight good, sunlight bad, give me the darkness, let me sleep and dream and everything is okay. I wake up in the morning and my entire life is gone, it’s like going from Heaven to Hell in an instant. All I’m asking is that if love isn’t real, nice girls or happiness why do I wake up to such monsters?

~If Dreams Aren’t Real, Why Are Nightmares?~

One Little Voice, or Quite a Few

Does it matter what I think of me… in the end people will say whatever they want and that is how I will be defined even in death. One Little Voice, Or Quite A Few except all these days all those voices seem to be saying the same thing; you suck.

~One Little Voice, or Quite a Few~

My Tombstone Reads…

Am I worthy of being remembered; I look at myself now with nearly six published books and I am not worth just one word. My Tombstone Reads… hell nothing, if I even get a tombstone that is, it will be nothing but a stone.

~My Tombstone Reads…~

Ask The Question, What is He Now…

Losers are losers I heard in a movie once and I should have learned a very long time ago. Ask The Question, What Is He Now… well I already know and yet people pretend they don’t hear me, they never see.

~Ask The Question, What is He Now…~

Can't Stay Here...

If I could go anywhere, be anywhere, and live anywhere it would be the warmth of my bed… beats the grave I suppose. Can’t Stay Here though so I don’t know where I belong; I’m not sure I even want to.

~Can’t Stay Here…~

And If You Rule

At first I figured I would rule this world at some point, rich and famous you know but of course that did not pan out. And If You Rule is more to the point of me creating a kingdom worthy of my soul.

~And If You Rule…~